lyricspam would really help right now

it's the end-of-haircolour blues, hopefully without intending a pun. My hair is slightly green, slightly brown, but mostly blonde. I wear hats to cover it up. My mother refuses to let anyone dye it but her, but she keeps promising to do it and then putting it off.

on another gloomy note, I have screwed over my friendship with a girl who I will refer to as "Happy." Happy and I have had building crushes on each other for almost a year now, and for a while I might have loved her. Then I kissed her.

Then I discovered I didn't feel that way about her anymore.

I haven't had the guts to speak with her since, and I am desperately afraid of doing so.

maybe it will be better this weekend.

life is so awkward.